Standing here staring out of the window, warm chai in gracious mitten hands, I am contemplating the best use of vocabulary and structure to relate contextualised content into written word, then share with you, the reader, a journey. Not just mine, but what is now, ours.
*Takes thirsty inhale to release the overthinking mind ... pauses over keyboard, and unleashes the beast!
First, a little backstory behind the motivational launch of this website. RainbowChannels.com meets a multitude of inspirational experiences, teachings & continued learning designed to embroider a spectrum of threads through the very fabric of life itself. I wish to unify and reconnect community and communities.
I am Rainbow. No, really ... I am! Many raised eyebrows, looks of exclamation and utterances from bemused lips share the same expression when enquiring into my moniker. If I could count the disbelief .... Hang on, deferring from introduction here...
Besides the obvious identifying labels, I consider myself to be a human (much to my own amusement and disbelief) ... a digress to Angelic-realm, in-house humour there!
If age, like time, was anything more than a concept, I’d have you believe, I am nearing a mid-century anniversary in the coming years. That is of course, if Great Spirit doesn’t have alternative plans for me - Heaven forbid!
Currently, I am a Mama to four beautiful, two-legged Soul Earthlings. Two male and two always-rights.
I began a healing journey way before I was made incarnate for this lifetime. It is etched in my soul, nature, spirit, thoughts and blood:- like stars in the night sky strike through the centre of Being and are welcomed as familiar friends.
Once I landed here from the Mother-ship, the journey has been far from easy. In fairness though, easiness does not build an enterprising nature. And as such, neither does expecting an easy life experience to shape and form growth of character.
As a species, we are primed and designed to respond and react to indicators of stress and peril. It is a primitive, chemical and biological drive that helps us maintain survival. My first-hand interpretation of PTSD is to begin by re-framing it as Post Traumatic Stress Drift. The drift is responsible for redirecting our attention away from the present moment, and from opportunities for healing. It is a disconnection.
My theory is that unresolved trauma rewrites like a software grading installation within our primordial responding mechanisms. This creates a programme restructuring in the energetic codes of the human body; rewiring the computing neural pathways; overriding and alienating logic and reason, drawing heavily on the immune system, re-configuring hormone levels and the digestive expenditure of energy directly responding to tissues of the body when under duress. Dysfunctions like these, seemingly correspond to experience(s) that are unsettling and disruptive beyond individual manageable level of central nervous system regulation. And if exposure to trauma is extensive, or there is a re-living of trauma after the event(s), the greater the possibility of complexities of dis-ease and dysregulation within a human's energetic field.
When any one, or all of the energetic systems are out of balance, it can manifest in somatic, emotional, spiritual and/or psyche realms. Often this implicates getting ‘stuck’ and systems short-circuit and deregulate as a result. That is until a more complete holistic approach to care and recuperation is considered and applied - even complimentary to more conventional applications.
Holistic therapy addresses the whole being. It does not isolate a manifested condition and seek to pacify the effects. In compassion, it seeks interconnection, inviting pathways of enquiry to allow cause and effect to reveal themselves. Think of it like a treasure hunt. And then think how long the human body had been signalling imbalance, yet remained suppressed and ignored. Over time this can map a chain-reaction that systemically pulsates through the different fields of Being.
For example, what once was a broken ankle, is now seeing a person losing their footing on life. Maybe they lose their job, family support, or have been tripping over every opportunity offered. Maybe they also have grief trapped in their chest, or a broken-heart which is preventing them from moving forwards and they are caving their chest from further harm, potentially resulting in a curved thoracic regional posture of their spine. This can cause undue stress and imbalance on organs, muscles, systems and tissues of the body. In turn, this knock-on effect manifests conditions such as the more superficial frozen shoulder, perhaps developing breath irregularities. And the pathway could take us to a tight jaw resulting from gritting their way through life, now manifesting temporal headaches, scattered thought and disrupted sleep patterns.
Through intuited lines of enquiry, a more complete tailoring of care can be affective.
Now, back to me! ...
I’ve been fed the same narrative throughout my life;-
“You’re weird’,
“You’re crazy”,
“You’re not normal”, (this is now actually quite delicious to hear).
At the beginning, I wanted to appease others and try to stifle what intuitive magic exists within and beyond me. The innate fear of exile and being ostracised was ever-present. The label of ‘abnormal’ reduced me to dial down, even shut down my faith and conviction in A Greater Love.
Then came a realisation, with reference to acknowledging our abnormalities we are delivered to something that could be anything but an actual compliment. However, I choose to take it as one, nonetheless. To me this can mean that I’m not pre-conditioned to accept abnormal norms. A mission close to my heart is to unpick and expose associations, even implications of colonisation and the impact of mindset and social discourse that create and pervade it.
Quite frankly, some common societal norms are purely endemic. They root in the shadows of fear and coat the tongue and mind with poison.
I sound bitter and that’s okay! I probably am - oftentimes, the illusion of separation can leave a bitter taste in the mouth (we can circle back to this topic of separatism in another post, but for now, let’s continue)!
What I continue to understand, is that humans present themselves in a way that they desire to be seen (even inadvertently).
And Every human deserves to be seen, regardless of initial presumption and speculation.
If we don’t arrive in authenticity of our self, surrendering to our placement in the present moment, and seek to make peace with ourselves and others for transgressions where growth is evident - then we will never show up and add to the enriching demonstration of humanity.
I consider myself to possess somewhat of a peaceable, gentle yet revolutionary nature and it has taken many years to come out of the psychic closet. I do not know how or why I invite and intuit, read, dream, envision, sense, feel, see, hear, taste, smell and touch qualities that are apparent to some and not to others, but my understanding is that these impressions are imprinted and encoded between molecular and etheric bodies that communicate through a matrix of energetic realms.
I simply meet & greet narratives stored in the memory field that infiltrate and surround living organisms and then relay readings, familiar and not-so familiar messages from these revelations. It would be a dishonour not lending my Being to give voice and assistance in bringing healing homeostasis via re-integration of mind, body, soul and spirit.
My journey to date has offered that in denying and suppressing these qualities, also acts as a dis-service against the very energies willing to transmit channeled healing potential from reaching those who are seeking it.
And this is all I could ask for, for humanity to recognise, accept, give and receive Divine Loving Presence within themselves and within one another.
I believe I can be a non-condemning, humour seeking, patient, tolerant and fairly easy-going person, yet that which roots in both fear and Love can convince us. Belief is a basis for powerful conviction. I believe beliefs also have potential to reflect that which is Sacred.
I wasn’t born to a coven of witches and warlocks (although as a fantasy this would have been super-cool)! I have not formulated a design that will enable others to inherit the same characteristics. However, I share art in progress - leaning into Loving Presence, honesty, compassion, humility, integrity, courage, discipline, respect, faith and patience as pillars of strength.
It is a dream to collaboratively share and build wisdom, heal connections, and reunite via channels with she who identifies as me.
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